A helpful guide to what I might say based on my situation.
If you don't believe in my awesome powers, "I find your lack of faith disturbing."
If you've said you're sorry, "Apology accepted."
If you are doing something for me, "It is your destiny."
If you are protesting your treatment, "Do you think you're being treated unfairly?"
If you refuse to acknowledge my superiority, "You don't know the power of the dark side."
If you are resisting admirably, "The Force is strong with this one."
If you do something cool, "Impressive. Most impressive."
If you are totally in my power, "I have you now."
If you do something stupid, "You have failed me for the last time."
If you have some of my property, "No disintegrations."

I think I'm going crazy but that's not news is it? I've always suspected as much. lol
mom started sleeping in my room because of some stuff that came up about two weeks ago and she wants to make sure I'm sleeping.
Now not only am I dreaming about what happened or stuff related to it but I'm waking up in the middle of the night, telling mom, going back to sleep and not remembering it when I wake up.
no wonder i don't really want to go to sleep.

wow sorry people some how the settings got changed on here to only readers. but now we are back. I am soo sorry.

to die would be an awfully big adventure.
-peter pan

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"The world is indeed full of peril and in it there are many dark places.But still there is much that is fair. And though in all lands, love is now mingled with grief, it still grows, perhaps, the greater"

 

dance as if no one were watching, sing as if no one were listening, love like it will never hurt. live like you will die tomorrow

I just go back from a survival class. so I have had no internet for the past week.
The week was amazing so I just have to share it with you. for starters...
Teenpact Survival is an alumni even for those who have participated in their four day class. with a select few others.
This class teaches some survival skills but is more focused on team building. being able to function well together to get things done.
some things I learned...
-Always try idea's
-encourage
-listen to your team captian
-make appeals to leaders
-delegation

By the end of the six days at camp it was simply incredible to look back at the first day and see how far we had come as a team. How we had bonded, learned what each was good at and how to use it.
There were eight People on my team; four boys and four girls. two of the boys were from out of state and one of the girls; two of those were alumni so that helped a lot.
we learned that there are four stages of team building

-forming
you start off getting to now one another, the group decides what is happening and begins to form into a team.
-storming
pretty much you start to learn things, brain storming ideas and making things work better together. A team captain is elected and an authority system established.
-norming
your are much better acquainted with what people can do and can work together relatively well to get things done.
-performing
basically just what it says. you do your best every one knows what they can do and they do it as a team.

anyway it was cool to look back and see how on that first day when we were "forming" it took us an hour just to figure out what we were called. we ended up as the "perilous Pirates"

We are the perilous Pirates

we've come to start the day 

to bring much hardship, toil and strife 

to all those in our way.

Who are we?

PERILOUS PIRATES!!!

Who are we?

PERILOUS PIRATES!!!

Who are we?

 PERILOUS PIRATES!!!

 Then on the last day in the first hour we were working on finding a place for our fort, plant ID, Rope making, solar compass and squirrel trap were all being made. We knew what we could do and were good at. I made rope and did Plant ID. The boys and Nadalie worked on the fort. My bro worked on the compass and Lydia worked on the trap (which ended up taking hours to figure out). Were able to delegate to people without interfering with each others projects; trusting, they would do it right and checking each others work in the end.

We all learned that hardships bring you closer, That was something we learned on day 2. We had completed all the tasks relatively well, except for the spider web that we had to get the team through. We we at the rope swing and some things happened. we weren't listening to each other and the tool that we thought we needed to use was lost. when that happened we just fell apart mostly. We did eventually get the rope but not until the end and not in time to use it.

through that we really learned that we needed to listen to each other and try ideas even if we thought it wouldn't work, we also learned about encouragement, we didn't do it at that point and it showed.

It really is amazing what encouraging each other can do.  On the evens we all did better when we had our team running along side of us when they couldn't help us physically, we went farther when they were telling us, "GO, GO!! YOU'RE ALMOST THERE KEEP GOING YOU CAN DO IT! DON'T LET HIM TOUGH THE GROUND! YOU'VE GOT THIS!" with them right there even to the flag bearing carrying that massive heavy flag pole.

we learned it again at the wall. 

The Wall is just that, a twenty foot (I think) wall between two trees. Day 3. Norming. Hunter probably wouldn't have kept trying to jump up and grab his team mates hand hanging over the wall if we hadn't been there.

we had a system. two guys lifted my little brother Caleb up first. his is thirteen and pretty strong. Then they lifted me up, then Clair, Lydia, Nadalie, Thomas and finally Hunter ran and jumped to hunter who pulled him up.

then again at the beam.

The Beam is a Beam between two trees. Some were between nine and twelve feet up off the ground. a wall without a wall. We had to go over the beam. All of us.

unfortunately hunter was again the last one over, her had to muscle his was over this thing Ten times. We used the same system as at the wall. caleb, Me, Clair, Lydia, Nadalie, Ryan, Thomas and then hunter. Except for when Thomas stepped in and took hunters place in last for five times over the beam.

after a while clair and I saw that ryan was getting tired so we stepped in and lifted the other girls and josh over for a while. One of the first time I have ever been called a beast and "beastly"

hunter later said that if we had not been encouraging him and telling him he could do it he would have stopped at the second time, instead he did it ten times.

The fourth day was really disastrous. Four people Go hurt and two couldn't finish because we were already injured and the hike was to rough.

we went hiking in the mountains, needing to find the four points we had chosen.  After forever we did find point one and mostly every thing was fine and dandy.

Anyway we were up at the hidden lake trying to get to point four. I turned back to go down with the injured team because I wasn't feeling well and my ankle was hurt. There was One other girl going down because her ankle was also sprained. We had joined the staffers who were helping down one of the guys who had hurt his knee. I go t to carry packs down for the guys who were carrying the injured person.

They had just set him down for a rest when we heard rocks falling across the ridge from us were our team was.  then a few seconds later when I heard some calling, "Ryan, Rayn, were are you?" I got really scared. and then when we heard over the radio that Hunter was missing and not with the team I was really, really, scared.

We all got off the mountain safely but Josh had twisted his ankle and Ryan had carried him and sprained his ankle. Brittany. the staffer, had been on the rock that stared sliding and got hurt as well. So that was pretty exciting. We also found out that our map was not oriented north but the the east which threw us off some. alot.

oh and the guy with the injured knee? he instisted that skyler not carry him. it would be the injured leading the injured. (blind leading the blind, proverbs, remember?) then it was pointed out that it was really the lame carrying the crippled. :) he got carried down the mountain.
Ryan and hunter were safe BTW.


The last night was the toughest and I'm not allowed to tell people about it.
I came away with a lot to the think on. Some things were difficult. others scary.


more later. Maybe. :) I have to think.
Ttyl

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