catching fire

admittedly my biggest desire to see catching fire was that I wanted to see the costumes.
it is a horrible movie. I mean, it was amazing, on the big screen, it was fantastic. but in a horrible i-dont-want-to-be-in-the-hunger-games sort of way.
as always I don't like katniss very much. she has a confused look permanently stuck on her face and she's utterly clueless.

rough

well, ya know, the age old debate vs. free will and destiny?  well, I'm not quite sure which side i'm on, but whatever you believe in, fate, destiny, divine providence, free will, it seems to take pleasure in messing with my family.
I don't really know what to say right now, I really don't.
I'm hurt.
I'm angry.
I'm shaken.
I'm scared.
I feel like i've been shaken to my core, like my whole view of people, life, and the world has been shaken. I've known since I was young that the world wasn't a nice place, because of experiences that not even my closes friends know about.
I think the only thing that hasn't been shaken is my faith that God will take care of me, and even then I am just trying to understand why He's is letting the things happen that are happening. What he's trying to teach me.