My Writing

The novel contest deadline is later this year, about four months from now.
I pretty sure I can get a novel done in that time. It's the last year that I'm eligible to enter and I want to be able to say that I did.

Occasionally I get inspired. And occasionally when I get inspired I write something mediocre at best.
But here you go. A little peek.
The words of my Villain to my Hero just before they go into their second to darkest hour or something like that.
Pardon me if it sounds too cheesy. I write for pleasure, I'm not a professional.

"Shhh, it's ok to not understand, you don't have to right now, one day you will, its ok. You don't have to do the big things, thats your choice, we all have choices, and sometimes, maybe once or twice in a lifetime we are presented with a really enormous choice. And those choices aren't always between right and wrong, sometimes its just between whats big and whats little, what's easy or what's hard. Sometimes both choices are hard, and sometimes both are easy, and sometimes, every once in a while, theres so many choices they make your head spin. You don't have to keep going. You can go home. You can walk away. You don't have to do this if you dont want to. You dont have to make these choices if you don't feel like it.

But rest assured, if you don't make a choice, one way or another, someone else will, and you might not like the choice that they make."

There you go. That's all.

He is Risen!

He is risen indeed.

This Easter has been the first Easter in forever that my family has spent just by itself. We were so busy this afternoon that we almost didn't have our tradition Easter dinner, for which I'm grateful. I know there are many people less fortunate than I and my family and I thank God for all that he has given me.
We spent most of the afternoon making pretzels for an upcoming local youth fashion show. One of the seamstresses in the valley started it several years ago and for the past few years has persuaded my Mom to cater it. So for weeks before we're cooking and freezing food. Today was delicious pretzels which took about 4 hours.
It was a lot of fun to spend time all as a family again. We were all at home and most of us helped with the baking. There was talking and laughing and can opening (for which we needed big strong men). There was Carrot souffle making and pet shaming and funny jokes.
Guitar playing and root beer floats.
It is nice that on Sundays we can all be together, my older brother is moved out and josh and I either always working or studying or goofing off with friends, so its beginning to feel rare that we are all together.
Not that it isn't part of growing up I suppose.
I always wanted to grow up, and make big plans. Now I just want to cuddle with people and do grown up things.
Like taxes.
I would much rather spend time with my family than do taxes.
This year was a good year. I'm very blessed to have my family.

My student is Po

Since I am not working at the club anymore I've gotten almost more work than I can manage.
One of the jobs is schooling a student.
Five days a week I will be going to my Boss's shop and doing school with her young son, keeping him on track, going over his work and helping him when he needs it, correcting it and helping him with corrections.
The most popular phrase during school time is "Duuuuude, focus dude. Don't hurl on the shell. Just waxed it, you know."
But it may quickly become, "focus, you can have a snack/break when you finish."
I have become master shifu.

NOOOOOoooooooooooooo

I will teach you small child, just you wait Mr. Higgins- er, small child, just you wait. I will train you. I will find a way.

With What Measure You Judge You will be Judged

Something I've been thinking about a lot lately is gender issues in media. "Hurray, another post about gender!" said all of her readers at once.
A few nights ago my family was watching Doctor Who together and one of the lines that The Doctor says as he jumps on his horse is "I speak horse, his name is Susan and he wants you to respect his life choices."
My Mom actually became quite upset at the show for that one line (and lets not forget Captain Jack Harkness.)
The thing is I expected her to be upset about it, but not as upset as she was.
Why?
Because I think we hold slightly different views.
Politically speaking I will refrain from the debate on whether or not gay/lesbian/bi/transgener/questioning people should be allowed to marry people of the same gender.
GASP
"How could a sweet, Christian, 'conservative' girl say such a thing?" you ask.
It is simple, Marriage is an institution, a covenant between two people before God (yes, marriage actually is an institution started out of religion), and I personally believe that the government has no place in it. I think the government has as much place in heterosexual marriage as it has in gay marriage. So as long as the government is going to stick it's fingers in traditional marriage the same should be allowed for gays.
GASP
Why?
Because it is the logical progression of my views on what it means to be a Christian.
To be a christian means that you believed sin entered the world and man entered a fallen state when adam and eve chose to eat the fruit of the garden that God had commanded them not to eat. At this point man's natural state was fallen and sinful.
To be a Christian is actually NOT NATURAL AT ALL. you could even say it's SUPERNATURAL. As a christian you will constantly be surrounded by people who do not believe the same way that you do, because it isn't natural. The natural thing to do is whatever serves you and feels right, but that isn't Christ's way, the way he laid out for us.
When you think of it, it's not non christians shoving their beliefs on us, We were actually sent to bring his teachings to them.
What right have we to be offended when someone says something contrary to what God says is right and true? If they aren't a follower of Christ then why wouldn't they say something like "his name is susan and he wants you to respect his life choices. It's a secular show, it makes no claim to be religious.
Furthermore, our job is not to judge them anyway, our job is to love them regardless of their life choices, like Jesus did.
Because with what measure you judge you will be judged.