Monday, December 24, 2012

Christmass

I like shopping.
and I like shopping for other people.
and I enjoy giving people whatever I went shopping for them for.
but this Christmas eve i'm kinda having a hard time.
ya know, I did last year too.
But this year it's kinda different.
I think I ate to much sugar and it's making my head turn every shade of insanity., because I'm kinda sad right now.
Sure, I know tomorrow will be fun.
I look forward to reading the Christmas story around the tree.
I look forward to hanging out.
I even kinda look forward to opening presents, but I really feel kinda crappy about it.
my brother is leaving on my birthday and it's kinda overshadowing i think.
and otherwise, I don't really know what the heck is wrong with me, and even if I did i probably wouldn't talk about it.


I got knew black boots today.
that was really nice.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Captain Jack

We got a new cat today.
Her name is Captain Jack.
Even though she is a girl.
She was also recently wormed.
She also saw fit to take a crap on my pants in the car.
I was not happy.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Tonight, we are going to see the hobbit.
dressed up in costume.
although most people who were going to do that probably went last night.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Little Valley Threads

Yup, that's the name of my Facebook business page.
I'm very happy tonight.
I set up a page and my dear surragate aunt is marketing me. :D

Saturday, December 8, 2012

my word, how hard it is to find a gingerbread church template...

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I didn't write this, I just like it alot.

TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,
HE LIVED ALL ALONE,
IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF
PLASTER AND STONE.
I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY
WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,
AND TO SEE JUST WHO
IN THIS HOME DID LIVE.
I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,
A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,
NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,
NOT EVEN A TREE.
NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,
JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,
ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES
OF FAR DISTANT LANDS.
WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,
AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,
A SOBER THOUGHT
CAME THROUGH MY MIND.
FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,
IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,
I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,
ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.
THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,
SILENT, ALONE,
CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.
THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,
THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,
NOT HOW I PICTURED
A UNITED STATES SOLDIER.
WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ?
CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED?
I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO, THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.
SOON ROUND THE WORLD,
THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,
AND GROWNUPS WOULD CELEBRATE
A BRIGHT CHRISTMAS DAY.
THEY ALL ENJOYED FREEDOM
EACH MONTH OF THE YEAR,
BECAUSE OF THE SOLDIERS,
LIKE THE ONE LYING HERE.
I COULDN'T HELP WONDER
HOW MANY LAY ALONE,
ON A COLD CHRISTMAS EVE
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME.
THE VERY THOUGHT
BROUGHT A TEAR TO MY EYE,
I DROPPED TO MY KNEES
AND STARTED TO CRY.
THE SOLDIER AWAKENED
AND I HEARD A ROUGH VOICE,
"SANTA DON'T CRY, THIS LIFE IS MY CHOICE;
I FIGHT FOR FREEDOM,
I DON'T ASK FOR MORE,
MY LIFE IS MY GOD,
MY COUNTRY, MY CORPS."
THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER
AND DRIFTED TO SLEEP,
I COULDN'T CONTROL IT,
I CONTINUED TO WEEP.
I KEPT WATCH FOR HOURS,
SO SILENT AND STILL
AND WE BOTH SHIVERED
FROM THE COLD NIGHT'S CHILL.
I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE
ON THAT COLD, DARK, NIGHT,
THIS GUARDIAN OF HONOR
SO WILLING TO FIGHT.
THEN THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER,
WITH A VOICE SOFT AND PURE,
WHISPERED, "CARRY ON SANTA, IT'S CHRISTMAS DAY, ALL IS SECURE."
ONE LOOK AT MY WATCH, AND I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT.
"MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIEND, AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT

Saturday, December 1, 2012

tournament today. meh.
instead of going all the way into town to be bored and watch my little sister fight for nine minutes with the same results as always, i'm going to a friend's house to hang out and watch a little bit of doctor who. :D

Friday, November 30, 2012

No sugar....
merherher...
last night I had a little bit of icecream.
and got sick.
*sigh*
I need to ask a friend when we are going to do doctor who next...

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Day four off sugar.
it's going ok. mom got me some tea. I like tea. especialy when I can't have coffee. lol.
cant have cake though. or gingerbread cookies.  or coffee. (did I mention that?) or anything.
it's not too bad, but it is the holidays, which is a fine time to go on a diet change thing.
and the hobbit costums are coming along well.
Oh, and the fire.
There's a fire several miles from us. about 7. last I heard it was not yet contained but was supposed to be by eight o'clock tonight.
We don't have any snow here which is strange, but that means there's a lot of dead stuff about which doesn't help in containing the fire.
anywho.
oh, took the littles to see rise of the guardians the other day.
liked it a lot.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

sugar free

Mom has taken me off all carbs and sugar.
I think I might not survive this one.
just kidding.
I will.
BUT I CANT HAVE ANY SUGAR!!!!!
I AM GOING TO GO NUTS!
I can't even have honey or artificial sweetners or anything.
or caffiene.
did I mention I can't have coffee either?

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Doctor who.

went and watched doctor who at a friend's house last night. I enjoyed it a lot.
but I like the first episode of the second season. particularely "Rude and not ginger."

Friday, November 23, 2012

this explains things...

http://www.humanmetrics.com/hr/JTypesResult.aspx


http://typelogic.com/intp.html


INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them.

INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to almost anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves.


Understanding, exploring, mastering, and manipulating systems can overtake the INTP's conscious thought. This fascination for logical wholes and their inner workings is often expressed in a detachment from the environment, a concentration where time is forgotten and extraneous stimuli are held at bay. Accomplishing a task or goal with this knowledge is secondary.


Games NTs seem to especially enjoy include Risk, Bridge, Stratego, Chess, Go, and word games of all sorts.

Thursday, November 22, 2012


Hey ya'll, it's thanksgiving.
You probably already knew that, but i thought I would just say it again.
it's the one day a year set aside for being thankful. Although we should really be thankful everyday.
Today I also like to remember the pilgrims and the founding of america.
I thank God for my country, I have so much to be thankful for here, from the big things like Freedom, the ability to chose our representatives and presidant, Freedom of Religion, freedom of speach and of the press, to the small things. Things like Family, Friends, Food, and the various talents and abilities that God has given me.
I'm thankful for each of the individual members of my family.
For my dad, because he's faithful. He's faithful to my mom and has been married to her for twenty(+?) years. He's been faithful all that time to go to work every day to provide for his family. He's almost never serious, always funny and always ready for icecream.
For my Mom, because she's always there and always loves us. She's always taken care of whatever we need and always making sure that we are prepared for whatever happens. She does what she thinks is best even when we don't like it and has helped me through tough times.
For my older brother, because he's sweet and hilarious. He is thoughtful and has always been there for me, and when he wasn't he lets me cry on his shoulder about anything.
For my little brother, because he's obnoxous and hilarious and likes to tease me about being short. Because he has the mind of an enginear and is great at math and science where I'm terrible and enjoys reading my stories and tells me they are great.
For my sweet little sister who just gave me a fudge covered oreo. Who asks me all sorts of questions that I don't care to answere and throws me a welcome home party when im gone and decorates the whole house for me. Who likes Go Fish and hates it when I stay up late at night reading.
I love my family and am greatful to have them all with me to day. I'm more greatful to have them this year than last year, I keep the hein family in my prayers as this will me the first thanksgiving without their eldest daughter.

Monday, November 19, 2012

it is very windy here. the wind sometimes makes the sound of a baby crying, which freaked me out, and made me go up stairs to see if little tyler was awake.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

yesterday was tournament day. my little sister one first in bother her devisions and won girls best technique. as usual.
on a more exciting note, my friend was fighting and broke her collar bone. that was interesting. she also won last in a devision that was won by a deaf girl. I thought that was really interesting.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

merp.
There's a tournament on saturday. thankfully we don't have to get up early in the morning. it starts at one o'clock.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

happenings

so what's been going on?
Hobbit costumes.
writting.
school.
haircuts.

Hobbit costumes.
The hobbit is coming out this year and my entire family and I are going in costume. we've been working to put those together.

writting:
Now that i'm done with my OYAN novel for a while (i'm waiting to edit it) I have picked up one of my old stories and am continueing to plod along with the one that my brother and I were writting together. two stories at once isn't that hard to keep straight actually.
picking up the old one again was a trip down memory lane. it was like, "what?!? I wrote that?" *scibble* *highlight* *delete* yeah, I rewrote a lot. :D it was nice though, I plan to continue with both.

school.
case and point.


haircut:
I got my hair cut, it was bid back leangth. It is now short enough that I can spike it into a fohawk.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Monday I got back from a trip to Arizona! it was great! I went down to visite a wonderful freind of mine down there who I haven't seen in a long time.
we did some sewing (a lot actually), a little bit of riding, a little bit of writing, a little bit of this, a little of that, some touristy stuff and over all had a great time.
her dog is adorable. :D

Thursday, October 18, 2012

prayer

Lately Mom has been reading to us kids a book on prayer tittled "wrestling prayer" bu Eric and leslie Ludy. We are about half way through it I believe, and it's been good. Eric is a little (ok, a lot) long winded and he takes a while to get to the heart of his point, but it has been pretty good. I would recommend it.
So far it's mostly about how, today, the Christian walk has been watered down a lot, especially in the area of prayer, how we could see so much more happen if we took the time to struggle in prayer with God. How prayer really is a struggle against the powers of darkness. How we should spend so much time praying and striving, calling on God for things to happen. How we need to pray with complete faith and trust in God. How God's wisdome is not our Wisdom. How we can walk with King David's "Swagger," That we are God's chosen and we can act like it, no power of darkness can stand if we struggle in prayer instead of hust a humdrum 'religous' sounding prayer."
It also talks about how God is affectionate. He gave Jacob a nickname, "Israiel." and David, "a man after God's own heart." That we to can have "nicknames." If we take the time.
It's been interesting. I didn't care for it at first. but I think it's interesting now.
I just think it's funny. I think mom started reading it to us because she wanted to "teach us to pray," because when we pray all together some of us ssay some rather simple prayers and stuff. I think it's funny because I do that, but it's because I don't particularly like praying in front of people. even if it's my own family. I do quite a bit of hard praying when i'm on my own.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

My brother was home last night, I stayed up to talk to him.
I admit to bing jealous, he hasn't spent a lot of time at home and has been spending a lot of time with his girlfriend. I didn't think though that I could be as upset as I was.
i'm not even making any sense to me so i'm giving up this post now.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

last night dad and I were home together. the rest of the family was scattered to the wind.
so what did we do?
we rented Act of Valor.
great movie.
very sad.
 in keeping with tradition in how I rate movies. "It's not a little kid movie." in fact, it's Rated R.
but it was awesome.
it's about seal team 7.
and it's sad.
especially when the guy jumps on the bomb to save everyone else. And when the other guy get's shot.
seriously.
watch. it.
 unless you're under probably 14, or you're faint of heart.
then don't.
because the girl gets tortured and people get shot all over the place and it's bloody and stuff.
so if you don't mind that kind of stuff then watch it.
and make sure you dn't swear at the TV, because you'll hear a lot of it.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

a friend of mine, Yetta Hein, died early this morning.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

can't remember if I posted earlier or not. :P
Tonight mom is going to start reading us the Felloship of the Rings, again. We love that series and we're gearing up for the hobbit to come out.
Tonight us girls went and picked up a futon for the spare room bed. ended up going to DQ. that was fun.
My dad finished my hopechest and brought it down to my room. since I don't really have a place to put it it is now under my bed.
It's going to be hard to make my bed.
anywho.
oh, also trying to connect with one of my friends. hopefully on saturday.
Mom got a new cellphone. it's really cool. I think I know more about it than she does.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Ah, my little brother and I have the house to ourselves. and what are we going to do? watch "Left Behind II." The small child isn't here right now so we're go. :D
and I"m really excited right now. my life is going phanominaly.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

our first snow fell last night.
ugh. I don't even want to look out the window again. it would be long till the world is completely lost in whiteness. You'd think this place was trying to send me over the edge or something...
Mom and I met with the doc yesterday about surgeries for my wrists.
The troops are coming home, so he's booked up for october, but in november I can get my right one done and then my left some weeks later.
so, in a tottal of about five months I could be fighting again. It's a long time away, but at least it's a goal instead of not knowing when i'll be able to do anything.
I don't think I'll be able to snowboard this winter, and that's a bummer, because it takes my mind off everything else about winter, but I want to get this over with.
I'm kinda scared for the surgery though. I've never been under like that, and I hope I don't talk coming out or after anesthesia. that could be very bad.
anywho, that's an update on my life recantly.
oh, yeah, this morning the clonewars season five premeired. that was pretty cool.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Ah, so the equenox has passed but five days ago. It was a mildly sad day, becuase now there will be more darkness than light till the spring equinox. It shall get darker everday till the winter solstace. And how it does snow up on the mountains. It is so cloudy now that it is almost as bad as if it were dark all the time, for all the drearyness it brings.
so tra-la-la-lally, here down in the valley
ha ha

My younger brother let me swordfight with him yesterday. tottally hilarious when he ran into the wall.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Meet and greet going on upstairs with yummy food while i'm quarentined to my room with the laptop for company.
not bad actually.
I can right if I can get my brain to proccess that much information.
ugh.
ah, well.
the family and I watched the Fellowship of the Ring today. Did you know today is Frodo and Bilbo's birthday? celecrated by tolkien fans around the world. :D
I so can't wait for the Hobbit to come out, even if it does come out in three parts....
feeling pretty miserable lately. in a sore throught and headcold kinda way.
so, i'm hanging out in the livingroom watching the tigger movie cause apparently the Left Behind movies are not suitable viewing material for a one year old little boy.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

meanings of names

Today my little brother and I were sitting at the table descussing who was more awesome and cool. him, or me.
He told me, "If you looked up awesome in the dictionary, underneath it in big, block letters would be my name."
So we hopped on the laptop and looked up our names. The results were fascinating.
Both of my brother's names are Hebrew and mean "God is Salvation," and "Servant of the Lord."
My younger sister's first name is hebrew and means "One of purity." Her middle name is turkish/Hawiian and means "Little Princess."
She was described as being beautiful in form and countinance.
As I read the results to my brother this section intrigued me and I kept reading in my monotone till I got to the part about being beautiful. As wich point my comment was, "That explains her great legs."
Mom and dad didn't research our names before they gave them to us. They simply named us.
But for my younger sister to be described as "Pure, a Princess, and Beautiful," is frighteningly accurate.
My little sister is adorable and the baby of the family. Sweet, inoccent, and has a body most teenage girls starve themselves to have. My astonishement knows no bounds.
They say naming a child is a mother's way of prophesying over them.
The urban dictionary says that girls with my sister's name are gorgous and should all be models. every one loves them, they are sweet and kind. fun to annoy and they never get angry with you. (here the accuacy ends because I can make my sister mad).

My elder brother's name is an occupational name. which is cool. I've always like the way his sounded.

My name is differant. It's from the french language and I won't tell you what it is, cause i'm not supposed to give that out over the internet.
But, it's a symbol of Victory. One only the greatest victors are awarded.
My middle name is from scandanavian and means "brave" or "heroic."


The dictionary describes my name this way:
The girl who struts through the hallways everyday looking like a light, vibrant girl. On the outside it's easy to tell that she has many friends from every type of crowd from the popular crowd and pretty much almost all the way to the bottom. She is basically hard NOT to like. What people don't know is that she hides so much and she plasters a smile to her face everyday so people don't know that her life is a total wreck. Everyday she feels like nothing is going for her, when others thinks she's got everything, well she doesn't. A ---- is the last person people would thin to commit suicide but she has considered it. She always deep down doesn't think she deserves the friends she has and is surprised people like her so much, sometimes she feel as people are just trying to be nice. People need to realize all the pressure she goes through each and everyday and love her for who she is. that's all she really needs, love. she is the most beautiful girl inside and out, sent from God. Treat her like an angel. She deserves it.
 
and:

a girl that everyone wants to be. Usually looks good in just about everything but she doesn't think so. Can act very mature but not afraid to dance in the street. A ------- can be the life of the party but will still get along great with the parents. A beautiful girl who has many friends. Has very deep thoughts about life and not afraid to share them with you. Her beauty will astound you and her smile is captivating. The girl you will never forget
 


 So there it is. what my names mean. I'm not very brave or Heroic, and I haven't won much, but I do think that my names are the awesomest out of all of us kids.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Last ounce of Courage

I went to see this movie in theature on friday night. I would highly recomend it.
Its the story of an grandfather who'd granson comes to live with him. the boy's father (the grandfather's son) had died fighting fifteen years prior.
The boy challenges his grandfather to do something right now about the fact that our freedoms are being taken away one by one.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Ocupational therepy and stuff this thursday.
Party at a friend's house this friday.
Game day at my house this saturday.
Bible study group this sunday.
and somewhere, at somepoint in the near future I have to figure out how to meet up with individual friends for hang time. :D


My brother and I have created *take a deap breath* a gandalf staff.
I went and trudged around in the woods for a while till I found the perfect material. A.K.A. an uprooted, fallenover pine tree. I had to drag it on my own for a ways till my little bro heard me and cam into the woods to tell me that I sounded like a herd of cows.
"Thanks, no are you going to help me carry this thing!"
:P
yeah.
we took it up to the top of the hill and I measured it and let him use the hand saw to cut it down to size.
then we took turns stripping it and shaping it.
It's gandalf the grey's staff, so the roots are still in tact, like in the movie.
we took it into the garage and used the sander on it, parts of it were still wet so we had to let it dry before we could finish.
i'm so glad that dad's not in state right now, cause we haven't swept the floor or anything.
Last night we stained it a mohogany color.  It looks pretty spiffy.
so glad dad's not home.
I think it might be a little too long, but dad'll be home soon and we can measure it on him and cut it down to size. :D
me likey.
They better let him in the theature with it because what with the sanding and plaining and all that my wrists hurt so bad.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

well, here we are again, I know I was hear last year too.
it's 9/11.
never forget what took place elven years ago today. never forget those who died.
Never forget the men who gave their lives. Never forget.
God bless the U.S.A.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

The Snow has started coming down the mountains. It happens every year, though it has only been the past year or so that I have come to hate it when that happens.
No, I do not look forward to another winter here.
I can look up at the mountains and love their majesty, but when thoughts of winter and its cold darkness creep up... My whole psyche starts screaming and clawing.
You might not know it on the outside but that's what's going on on the in.
yeah, I don't like winter. Just a little bit there, maybe.
besides the fact that it's frozen and dark all the time....
anyhow...
ttyl.

Friday, September 7, 2012

my great grandfather died this morning.
one of the last of his generation in our family.
rest in peace grandad.
I wrote an essay in an hour today.
I'll post it maybe when I get the results back from my teacher.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

My friend is back from bootcamp for a week and then she leaves again. She came over last night and we watched the last of the star wars movies. She fell asleep during the second half and woke up for the ending.
funny conversation:
lil sis: Katie, your arms bend in really far. (she was posting on her arms)
Katie: Ok. that's fine. I don't think our joints were made to be attractive, nesiccarily.
lil bro: Katie, your elbows are so inspiring!
big bro: and you knees are so perfect!
me: Katie, your ankles, they are just a work of art, and have I mentioned your spine?
katie: *is speechless at this point*

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

my friend punched me in the jaw yesterday. I couldn't believe it. she wanted to kill me!
She was chasing me around a piller and I turned to go the oposite direction, blinked and the next thing I know i've got a fist in my jaw and i'm falling all over the school floor! I think my teeth shifted since the last time I got hit in the jaw...

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

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My dear sir and stalker,
I'm sure you do me the honor of reading my blog and I heartally thank you for your consideration.
I have read your other comments as well. I don't know what the design is called. a friend of mine did it for me.
I apreciate your commenting on my blog and letting be know that someone still reads it.
However, I must ask that you do not reffrence my friends and family as "brain dead." Many times I share my heart here when I can not otherwise share it in person. To me they are very thoughtfull.
I'm sorry, for all I know you could be a crazy stalker who wants to... oh never mind. I don't hand out my social networking sites to strange people on the internet.
Anyway. This is the only public feed I have. all others are private to me and my personal friends.
thank you for visiting my online hang out.
thank you for commenting.
thank you for enjoying what I have to say.
Haley


Monday, August 27, 2012

Saturday I went to the fair with some friends of mine.
it's the third year that I have been to the fair and last year there was one thing that I kinda really wanted to see. That was the "Pirates for Hire" show. I didn't get to see it last year, but this year I did go and see it.
Mostly I wanted to see it because it had captain Jack in it.
The best part was after the show when I got to talk to the pirates.
Oh, of course I got my picture taken with captain jack and got to ask about his compase, which is something that I have always wanted to do, but I also got to talk to the head pirate for a good long while.
My teacher puts it this way:
"Roselind was talking to the pirate and it was interesting. And then Haley was there and it got Really Interesting."
yup. that's me.
We started talking just standing around, but then the three of us got tired of staniding and we movied to sitting on the bleachers.
If I had to use three words to describe him (mom said I had good insite if I could put more than three words together. the original three were: "an interesting Fellow.")

Constervative. Philanthropist. and something else that I don't actually have a word for.

he was pretty conservative in his veiws of politics.
Every one should be allowed to own a gun and carry.
the school system is screwed, (schools in which guys and girls are seperated actually work better than public ones, the education isn't great and all that)


He's a philanthropist.
He came here and a bunch of kids were helping with set up or take down and all that and it came out that the kids that were helping were homeless kids. He felt really really bad, for reasons that I can explain here. He ended up taking one of them back to the place where he and his crew were staying and eventually set up an organization to help these kids with food, clothes and all that stuff.
He's also been involved in some other stuff and all that.


He's also an Atheist and that's really funny.

It's also realy sad, because he believes that we are all trying to get to the same place and can take whatever road we want to get there, that it doesn't really matter as long as it works for you.
That we all are born with ethics that are good but we are tought morals. But no person should impose his or her morals on others as an ultimate.
It's sad because he believes it, and he really has done some good stuff, but it's all in vain. He's not gonna get to heaven believing like he does and all the good things that he has done aren't going to get him there or help him out at the judgement. They are all going to be for nought.

That is very saddening. That he is so lost and he doesn't even see it. very sad.

Friday, August 24, 2012

I don't like it when I moderate comments and all the spamm ones are either about narcotics (which I find halariously funny) or all written in chinese. Or is it Japanese?
or something.

Monday, July 30, 2012

I've been thinking today. a rare accurance, I know. I think it's really funny that I write alot of what I think one here, or did, I've pretty much given any one who cares all the knowledge that they need to build me up and challange me or tear me down.
But few people that I know actually read it. which i'm actually glad of.
I think most of my friends see me as a loud, sarcastic little girl; their friend's younger sister that they put up with.
only three that I know of really know that I was cutting.
fewer than that I think, know that I can get depresses. My brother says I always do.
I'm kinda thankful that the vast majority of my friends dont really know.
It can still be a raw and sore wound.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I started school back up last week, sort of. I didn't really want to, and I think i've done more school this week than I did last so I would really say I started it this week.
I am the brilliant mastermind of a hugenormous sewing project that must be completed before december. We are all going to see the hobbit, so we are going to all get dress up in costume. and mom and I have to make them all.
which meant that I had to analyse them all.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

call me maybe

I had never heard the song "call me maybe" till my mom found this video of the military version and showed it to me.
enjoy.
lauren

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Yesterday was the fourth of July. as most ever one knows; yesterday, we celebrated the freedom and independance of our country.

I'm proud to be an american, God bless the U.S.A.

Saturday, June 30, 2012

*sigh*
so busy lately. :D but that's ok by me. a friend is comine over to stay the night tonight. next week I think i'm giong to a friends to stay the night there, and I"m thinking about a haircut. reeeaaaallly short. :D

Thursday, June 21, 2012

somehow, I don't see how people can just know that God has big planns for me, or that "he has his hand on me," when I"m struggling just to get my school done, i'm so far behind.
I doubt doubt that he has planns for me, I just don't know how they can see that when I cant see very far beyond highschool.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

sunday! the mom has gone to the airport to get my wonderful friend and bring her home. I cant wait to see her.
She has come up to see some of her friends so she's spending the today and tomarrow with us.:D
I's so a'sited. :P

Saturday, June 16, 2012

well, as you probablyknow it is saturday. I knew that as soon as I cracked my eyes open this morning. All I had to do was listen to the differant dinamic on saterday mornings.
saturday is always differant than friday. :D

Friday, June 15, 2012

mom set up a tentative apointment for me., I'M GOING TO SPEN TWO HOURS IN THE MRI MACHINE!!!
*faints*
that's a long time to not be doing anything. :(

Thursday, June 14, 2012

last night the mother and I watched the last episode of season two in a the series tittled: "Lark Rise to Candleford."
Now, we must go to the library and get third season.
I do like it, though I'm not sure if I like it as much as I like the "Mcgregor Saga." :D
tonight or tomarrow morning mom and I are going to look at Eowyn's and Arwen's dresses form Lord of the Rings. We are going to see the Hobbit in theature when it comes out and we are going dressed up.
the mother wantes one of the elven dresses I think. or Eowyn's white one.
I'm thinking more along the lines of a plane green dress. maybe dark blue. Or red.
the little's costumes we won't start until later this fall so that they don't grow out of them before the hobbit eve comes out.

Oh, my brother also found out that his paperwork went through so he should be inlisting here soon into the military.
I'm so proud, and yet so sad, he'll be loeaving for bootcamp. That means that while he's gone, I will be left home as the oldest. That is a sad though, since out of all my siblings I'm especially close to my brother, and after basic he could be deployed.
I'm also wondering how my friend is doing at her basic training, by now she's been down there over a week. :(

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

so, mom had a docters apointment today so she was gone all morning; so she got my referals for the MRI.
It looks quite interesting actually. :D I'd like to see how this works; getting shots in my wrists didn't feel that great but not excrutiating or anything. so if I have to get more I think it will be ok. ;)
I want to see the images too.
thankfully we are able to get it done locally. :D
I've never had this done before but the X-ray that I saw looked really cool. before I came out of radiology last time the tech showed me one of the pictures and how they could see down my wrist to make sure I didn't have carpol tunnel (which I don't have btw).

My brother also has a new job and hopefully I'll be starting one within the coming months. I'm so excited. Mom and I are already planning what we want to do.going to see friends comes to mind. I can't wait.
the job is babysitting a one year old boy. all week, every other week. :D I can't wait.

I do have to wonder if I will ever get back into Judo though. If everything turns out for the worst as far as my wrists go. another six months and I will have been out for an entire year. That saddens me because I really do love Martial Arts. If I can't do it again because of all the wrist action then maybe someday I'll look into a differant art.
*sigh*

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

messy mondays

I am not affiliated with blimeycow or messy mundays, but i thought I'd share it with you.
my word, it has been so long since I post anything at all, and I don't know why.
well the long and short of what's been happening lately is this.
my wrists have been hurting since earlier last year, so about two months ago we went to the doc. Both Dr. that we visited said that the tendon in the back of my wrist was inflamed and was pinching the nerve.
He reffered us to Ocupational Therepy, so that's what I have been doing twice a week for the past two months.
Last week we returned to the Dr. for the steriod shot that he had recomended at out previous visit and some X-rays.
He gave me the shots in my wrists after telling us that there was a black spot in my wrist and that he didn't think that it was anything to be worried about. just a "Anatomic Variable."
On Friday Night my brother took me to see the movie "Batteship." When I got home mom told me that the Dr. had called, were the Dr. said he didn't think there was anything to worry about the radiologist said that we needed to get it checked out.
so, now we are looking for an Orthopedic Surgeon and trying to get an MRI. They think that it could, quite possibly be that one of the bones in my wrists isn't getting enough blood flow and is dying. :(
so that's what's happening lately.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

alright, alright, I have no excuse for not writing this time. So I'm writing. writing, writing, writing. About something I've been learning lately, and that is this:
Do not judge a book by it's cover. The biggest smile and the funnest goof off might have more to their story than you would ever know until you tried to get to know them.
That has really hit home lately. first off when I was friended on facebook by a girl that I had been pretty darn mad at at the judo tournaments. Some of us didn't like her, but some of us didn't take the time to get acquainted with her story. I still only know bits and peaces, but I know that she is a girl who was hurt and confused.
the girl I respected as a good fighter but I thought just liked to goof off? there's more to her than meets the eyes too. I never would have known if I hadn't wanted to get to know her a little bit better. I wouldn't have known that, even though I astound her sometimes (cause she's just a little more... well, I'm a lot more naive than she) she's really cool to hang out with.
that saying "you know my name, but you don't know my story," is sticking with me right now.
it's kinda frustrating though, I sometimes listen to people's stories or just see them hurt and want to help, but sometimes, I'm not close enough to them to help, or they won't let me close enough. That's what hurts the most, not being aloud to get close to some one to come along side them. I see pain in my friends and I want to help them.
It does sometimes frustrate me.
I try not to get angry at God, or blame him for the problems that I got myself into, or what i'm going through, but sometimes I can't help but shake my fist and question God about the pain in the world. Wondering why he let's things happen to people. I have to remember that we live in a fallen world and that God is a just God, but what about the kids on the sidelines watching who have to grow up so much faster and so much harder than the rest of us?
It hurts to watch that. It really does, but I know that there is a time and a place for words and also a time for silence. I don't have to try to step in or even say anything the first time some one tells you their story. No matter how much it hurts me to see it.

Friday, May 4, 2012

this year I felt really sorry for one of the staffers. he had that glazed look on his face that I get when there's people at our house and I would really rather be left alone.
Today is the last day of teenpact week here in my state, it's the communication workshop or something like that.Neither Josh or I are going, the bro is going over to see his friends and I am going to physical therepy and then helping mom get the food ready for the fashion show tomarrow. :D
This week was kinda bittersweet to me. I was there at the class but not in it and so many times I wanted to just jump in and say something or discuss an issue and I couldn't. So I had a lot of time to goof off. More than normal. So in a way I kinda dissapointed myself by not always acting my age.
By not participating in the class I was able to help out in the kitchen some with food and clean up.
all in all it has been an interesting week, but the week's not over yet.
oh, I also met another OYANer. :P definately interesting.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

I was thinking today about Christianity and Atheism, not an uncommon occurrence really. My thoughts?
Atheism has never been able to Kill Christianity, not matter how hard they try. Except for once, and that was when they crucified Christ and literally killed God incarnate. But then.. that was when Christianity was born.

I was also thinking about queen Jadis when she entered Narnia. the book says that she heard Aslan's song and understood it and it made her angry. Most people say that she is comparable to Satan in our world but at this moment in the story I am inclined to think that she is distinctly Human. Uncle Andrew and Queen Jadis were both Magicians of their own sorts and believed that they were above the common law, that they were above morality, but their reactions to the song were differant. Uncle Andrew was afraid and would have crawled through a rat's hole to get away from the song, But Jadis was differant.
Jadis hated the song.
In Charn she had been the last queen, she had faught her sister in the last civil war; both had agreed not to use magic against the other, but the one sister broke that rule and as she walked up the steps of the temple to meet her sister Jadis prepared her own treachery. When her sister had come up to her and looked her in her face she spoke the deplorable word that destroyed all life in Charn.
She was a cruel woman, having stood in the streets listening to the beating of the sacraficial drums, the lashing of the whip and the groaning of the slaves.
When She heard aslan's song she knew that he was creating a new world, she knew that the pure, perfect notes of his vioce contained a power far greater and lasting than her own. She saw his perfection and the perfection of the new wold and she hated it. She hated what she saw and she hated what she heard and she hated that she could do nothing about it.
Her reaction was entirely human. There are people who fight against God, they do not want to surrender to his will. They want to order their own lives. For whatever reason they are angry at God. They hate his calling, they understand it but they hate it all the same. They hate him and they fight against him.

that's my thoughts,
Haley

Friday, April 27, 2012

Today I successfully burnt the back of my hand. it kinda hurts.
but that's ok. it will stop soon.
I"m feeling better too. sitting around, hanging out, watching pirates.
Tommarow I"m going to finish the shirt for my friend, next week we're doing teenpact.
Should be fun, I'll get to go play frisbee and that's always fun.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

well, what ever bug has been going around has hit me. i'm in bed right now; I chucked my cookies a couple of time earlier today.
it wasn't pretty.
couldn't keep the probiotics  down.
fail.
but i'm feeling a little bit better.
especially since I now have had strawberry jello.
that stuff could make the world go round.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I know that supposedly imitation is the highest form of compliment but there are times when I really, really hate it.
especially when it comes to sharing a room, when you find a spot that you like to hang out in and do your school work because NO ONE ELSE HANGS OUT IN THAT PARTICULAR SPOT. In this case, on the floor in my bedroom, (though in past cases it has been: in the crawl space, on the guest room bed, in the closet, etc., ect.,) so because NO ONE ELSE hangs out there you dicide that you will do your school, write, read or just chill there. So one day you go to that spot to do what ever you need to do and SOME ONE ELSE has taken your spot, instead of finding there own place to hang out. Yeah that's right. Once upon a time I pulled a lamp into the closet which is only about two feet wide, sat on the floor and did my school. By myself in a place were NO ONE HUNG OUT. But other people descovered the closet and moved in. So I moved into the crawl space. Until, again, other people moved in with me. Then for a long time it was the guest room bed. I liked that spot. until other people, namely, my little siblings, started doing their school in there too.
Now I had taken up doing school on my bedroom floor on a blanket. and guess what? That didn't last long now did it?
Yes, I can still hang out in the closet but I'm a little bit bigger than I was when I was ten.
I don't mind people coming in and going out or hanging out with me in the shared room but taking over the place were she KNOWS I like to do school just makes me mad.
It does frustrate me some times that I have to share a room. but not as much as that when I find a spot to hang and as soon as I get comfortable. SOME ONE TAKES OVER.
GGGGGGRRRRRR.
The absolute only place I can go and have no one walk in on me or try and take over is the bathroom. and people don't apreciate that. my older brother has his own room. my younger brother has his own room. they can go in there and not have some one taking their favorite spots to hang out and do their stuff by themselves.
I'm done ranting. now. you can finish the thought on your own i'm sure.
Ok, I haven't been able to post in a couple of days because the internet on our main computer won't support blogger, so I haven't been able to post.
The snow is melting very quickly and that makes me very happy.
We got the approval for physicall therrapy, so that's good.
Teenpact starts next week and my little brother is going to e doing that.
My dress is coming along very well, but I have to hand pick the hem and that takes a long time.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

tommarow is the homeschool convention. I'm pretty sure some of my friends are going to be there so it shouldn't be to boring. Mom runs one of the tables there so I'll have a place to chuck my stuff and hang out but I hope to visit some of my buddies.
Unfortunately the lady who has been running the convention in the past isn't running it this year, so we'll see how it goes.
We've had interesting experiences in the past with the convention.
I might bring some school to work on. I may bring my notebook and do some writing.
my brother has put out the most serious challenge. Showing me a story he wrote and then telling me he hadn't written in a while and wasn't planning on writing more. Until I got mad and threatened to write for him. I started my own story and he has since started writing again. :D

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

the snow is melting finally. we've broken records here and six months of snow is long enough.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

We finally got to the doctor today.
I now have a brace on each wrist. They don't match. but that's ok.
we are looking at doing therapy and possibly doing some injections, but I don't know.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

I'm beginning to wonder if I will ever really get back into the swing of going to judo.
with school and sewing and all.
I have to get this dress done so I might stay home tonight.
*sigh*
I did clean up the sewing room and my sewing boxes in my room. if I do some of the stuff I want to I won't need to get fabric for a long time.

Monday, April 2, 2012

I"m finally getting around to being able to post some thing. I've been sick the last couple of days and haven't done much.
The state championships were on Saturday and I am very pleased to say that our club took home the trophy for the most points (we won it last year as well, we bring the most people to it, I think). We also brought home the Sato Cup (boys) and the Fukuta Cup (girls).
During the Tournament I coughed so much that I lost my voice, this fact made the awards banquet all the more interesting when I tried to whoop for our team.
the Dinner wasn't catered that well so afterwords we went to the Golden Coral. It was ok. It would have been better but I don't think I'll ever be able to go to an after state dinner and be able to eat much of anything.
I did have clam strips though, and they were good.
mom had calamari and got food poisoning. bleh. she swore off seafood.
so today is a new week. meh. it's nice out.
I'm waiting for my little brother to get out of the shower so that I can mop the bathroom.
My other brother is trying to run three miles with a 55LBs pack on his back.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

O! M! G!
-sensie, upon seeing my return to judo.
I hurt right now. the tired muscles from judo aren't bad.

I just got back from hopping around though and I don't feel good. that's bad.
we had a sock war. that's were you try and pull people's socks off.
i'm off.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I do desperately love my mother. I love her very much and I don't wish she were invisible.
I don't want to be rebellious. I really, really don't.
Neither do I really want to talk about cutting either. It's just not something I want to talk about. It's like taking the scab off a wound and pouring lemon juice on it.
Counciling isn't something I think I need or want. I think I'm ok.
Mom has the authority to pretty much make me do what ever she wants. My close friends, they don't have that power. They are pretty much on my level; they can't make me go to counciling, they can tell me i'm wrong, ask me not to, cry and be hurt. But ultimately, I have to either take their advice or toss it out the window for myself.

I love my mom, I wish I could spend more time without having to worry that we are going to be discussing how I've messed up/if I've done something wrong, or "how i'm doing" and just do stuff.

I should probably go to judo tonight. it might be fun. getting ready for a tournament.
*sigh*

Monday, March 26, 2012

I get my braces off on wednesday.... same day as I was invited to go party.
I have yet to finish my school work so I should probably get off of here.
Grandma sent me a job to do. finish cape. My friend sent me a pair of shoes. lovely silver ones.
My dress needs working on. another thing I have yet to do.
dinner should get in there somewhere.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

I woke up this morning, of course, went to throw the blankets of me and made a discovery. My right wrist hurt. that makes both wrists. :P

Thursday, March 22, 2012


a failed rendition of "Jesus take the wheel" which is a very good song that I enjoy.
this is pretty funny though.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

today I go to the orthodontist to hopefully get my last set of bands and schedule the removal of my braces.
I had red highlights put in my hair on saint patty's day.
Yesterday there was a gas leak at the school were I take judo.
Tomorrow is Thursday.
that's pretty much all the excitement going on here.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

This week was pretty cool. I was at a sewing camp as a councilor. I taught a sewing group which started out as four and slowly dwindled to two by the end of the week.
some of the students left early and some were pulled from my group to even out the teacher/student ratio.
My study group was larger.
we had originally had fifteen students signed up for the class. but one helper and two students couldn't come..
There was one girl in my group who has been in foster care and hasn't seen her mom for six years. it was awesome just to be able to hang with her and get to know her.
I can't wait to see if she starts taking classes.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

march is self harm awareness month. just thought you'll should know.
My wrist hurts much worse today. I'm thinking it has a lot to do with working on that air clay yesterday.
*sigh*
I shall find the wrist brace.
I shall also write today.
I need to do a writing assignment because I won't be able to do it next week.
*sigh*
my dad's question my little bother's statement about dad's friend not wanting to talk to him or something. little dork.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Fanuilos heryn aglar
Rîn athar annún-aearath,
Calad ammen i reniar
Mi ‘aladhremmin ennorath!
A Elbereth Gilthoniel
I chîn a thûl lin míriel
Fanuilos le linnathon
Ne ndor haer thar i aearon.
A elin na gaim eglerib
Ned în ben-anor trerennin
Si silivrin ne pherth ‘waewib
Cenim lyth thílyn thuiennin.
A Elbereth Gilthoniel
Men echenim sí derthiel
Ne chaered hen nu ‘aladhath
Ngilith or annún-aearath.

I love this song. if you ever get the chance to listen to the passing of the elves from lord of the rings. it's beautiful.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

I just got the word that my teacher is inviting the helpers in the camp I will be helping with to do a fast. including a media fast.
I haven't dropped off the face of the planet but I will be gone for a little while.
I get to go teacher girls about sewing and about the bible in a week. trial run for a longer trip. :D

Monday, February 27, 2012

Nope, I'm not dead.
My pulse is still.... uh... pulsing. I think. let me check.
HOLY SNOT! I don't have a pulse!!!!
*keels over dead*
no, just kidding I do.
:O I don't remember what I've been doing or what I was supposed to do. oh yeah contact Mrs. C
BRB
done.
I had something interesting to say.....
On a dare I inhaled some Iodine yesterday. it was the stuff in the capsule I was supposed to take. It felt really weird...
DON"T TRY THIS AT HOME.
I can't be responsible for people sniffing stuff and either choking on stuff or asphyxiating themselves.
Practically threw a tantrum in the kitchen I couldn't find the dang measuring cup.
I surprise myself on occasion. I think the other day I was trying to find a pair of non-fabric cutting scissors and couldn't. I think I screamed and punched the door..... or maybe i kicked. I don't remember.
:P
BTW, I didn't find the scissors.
I want to find out what the latest hank the cowdog is. :P


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I believe I should probably post something. ok.
as it turns out I don't really have anything to write about today.
I did the lunch dishes. that was kinda fun. Today was an odd day. I didn't feel as 'sparkly' as I have been and I don't know why. I just didn't.
I made a new anklet cause my old one fell off. it was tan. this one is black and blue, I couldn't find more of the tan cording stuff but I found blue so that's what I did.
I did a little bit of writing today. It was good to write again. I enjoy it and will probably write some more this evening.
I've been wanting for it to be critiqued because I don't actually like to read my own writing. It's worse than cross-stitching or going fishing; I just like to write.
:P
The little sis and I taught mom how to play 'horse show'. Now we have to teach it to dad cause Mr. S called it a "dad friendly game, meaning we can actually win it."
Rachel took her pillow apart and turned it into one pillow.
I did both algebra and geometry today. I like geometry much betterer than algebra.

these my friends are some pictures that you might enjoy. I did not create them. I do not own them. I don't know who does though.







3D gives my mom a head ache. just a random fact you might like to know. :P
why did the quick brown fox jump over the lazy dog? didn't he know that its dangerous to hang around a barn yard? he could have been shot! actually his pelt might look nice on the wall.

and why didn't the disciples have enough faith to trust that the boat wasn't gonna sink?
"Guys, I'm taking a nap in the bottom of the boat, do you really think I'm gonna let it sink?" ~Mr. Stratton
I'd never though about it that way before until Sunday.

:P


Monday, February 20, 2012

I went to see the phantom menace in 3D. it was pretty cool. I haven't been to a 3D movie before so it was neat. movies have come a long way since the paper blue and red glasses.
Mom got a zipper to put in her skirt so she can almost finish it. :D it will look pretty... and show off her legs. :) She'll be cut in it.
my bro got me a new journal. leather bound with a Celtic knot on the front and brown ribbon. Its gorgeous.

Friday, February 17, 2012

at the moment I don't know what I feel. I went to history class today and got to hang out with my friends. the majority of the girls in the class I know and have spent quite a bit of time with outside of the class. I enjoy hanging out with the guys in the class too; the teacher's son was my team captain at survival and his friends are pretty fun to hang out and goof off with.
I find that if I want to talk to some one about something I like to hang out with my girl friends but if I want to goof off and have fun, just find the nearest group of guys that I trust and hang. I played dead and bed pretended that he was going to tackle me and surprised me. Thomas did card tricks on us and then we played Frisbee in the church's old sanctuary. Just three guys and me (and the teacher and occasional parent). Guys are fun and easy to hang with. I had a good time after class.
But I also didn't really get to talk to Sabrina, which saddens me cause she is a close friend.
I also told my sewing teacher yesterday about my cutting. that was a bit hard.
*sigh*
I haven't been up to too much lately. I was at and did judo on tuesday but only went and watched on thursday.

*sigh*
so I'm waiting. trying to get friends over to the house tomorrow.
Mom wants to have a family over. I kinda think it will be fun but I kinda dread it. I wanted to know if the girl who was befriending me was real (since not all of my experiences in this department have been great) so I told her what I had done.
This wasn't a great move on my part since now I feel like she's digging or pushing to know how i'm doing every Sunday. It's not bad and she means well I know but it's getting old since she doesn't know me that well. She hasn't yet earned my whole trust. I lover her and she is a great girl. She simply has not earned my trust in that kind of way.
So I feel claustrophobic.
though she's cool. She has a heart for God and she's full of love and compassion from what I've seen (like I said we don't know each other fantastically well) it's just the feeling I have about her.

On the other hand, with the friends that I love and trust and have known for a long time I'm willing to open up to. I trust them and love them to death.


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happeh Valentine's day people! Have a great day with who ever it is you are spending the day with. family, friends or who ever.
this person is celebrating singles awareness day but I get to with my friends happy valentine's. cause they are the sweetest, excitingest, taughest people I know. :D

Monday, February 13, 2012

total look-alike

Obi-wan Kenobi from "Star Wars"

Matt moneymaker from "Finding Bigfoot"
I don't know about you guys but I thought that these two guys so look alike.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

I"m going dancing tonight! EEEEeeek. it's been forever. I can't wait.

Friday, February 10, 2012

ah! I've been down in the school room all day sewing and I've gotten a lot done but I found out that I do not like dealing with Boning in dresses. it's been a nightmare so far. The worst part though was that the last episode of the clone wars whatchyamaycallit. episode 4.18 part four in a four part story. It was not nearly as climactic as I was expecting. rather disappointing.
but that's ok.
this weeks theme clone wars theme (yeah apparently they do that): "trust is a gift that must be earned"
the little bro stayed home last night from judo as usual but he was watching Clone wars. kinda jealous but not really. I got to go out with mom and get stuff to work on my dress. I think I'm gonna love my dress.
Love.
Love.
love it.
I can't wait. I"m gonna work on it today. :D
One of the little girls at judo said she wanted to learn to make a dress. I'm thinking that some time when my sister has her friend over I should see if this little girl can come over and hang out with me. :P

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I was drawing on my knuckles. Mom doesn't like it when I draw on my knuckles but it brings back fond memories of standing around with seven other people in the cold and the wet and the rain.
See, using your knuckles you can make a topographical map with alternates between 3D and stationary. Then you can color it in and make it all pretty but unless you live near a mountain range that looks like four protrusions on your fist it's not gonna help you get anywere. So don't try it. You'll be as lost as a parrot under four feet of arctic sea ice.
Or a Frisbee on the roof. Frisbees do not belong on the roof of my families house. Especially if the Frisbee is white and the roof is covered with snow. Fortunately it landed with the blue print side up. :D
I  was worried about losing the disk in the snow since the disk is white and there is snow all over the place and if we lost it I wouldn't get it back until spring which isn't for about two months.
the littles and I had a fun time while we were able to play; if was fun to work the kinks out of our throws and work on them till the wind came. I even got the disk to go were I wanted with a throw I hadn't really ever tried before. That felt good. it would have been even cooler to work on my hammer but my little sister is small and I'm afraid of hitting her in the face with it or losing it in the snow. so I didn't try.
the little sis I didn't let throw towards the house because she doesn't always get it in the area that she wants it in and it wouldn't be a good thing if she hit a window. She also got to get the frisbee when it flew into the four feet of snow because she was the only one who bothered to put snow pants on.
It was a whopping 34 degrees out so I just threw on a sweatshirt and boots but didn't think to put snowpants on and neither did the little bro making the little sis the designated disk-getter.
At the moment the little bro and mom are playing dominoes next to me as i write this on the laptop. I think mom is losing. They are also eating chips. I don't know what the little sis is doing. Probably skating in the garage or listening to Adventures in Odyssey down stairs.
Instead of going to Judo tonight I'm going to the fabric store with my mom to get thread to sew this dress because you do all the prep work but if you don't have the thread to sew it together, it ain't goin no where. no place. zilch.
And a zipper. If I don't get one of those it's not going to close and we will have some garment malfunctions that would reveal way more than I want to. Not that I want to at all.
The only other fun thing that happened was changing up my email to make it look so much more cooler. the little bro thought it was weird and confusing or something like that.
I think it looks awesome.
I also dinked around with google sites. being slightly on the bored side.
Mom took a two hour nap and made a fantastic dinner for tonight. I can't wait to get my mouth around it.
You would never know that I hate cooking from watching me but I really do. I'm not patient with food.

who likes cooking and what do you like to make?
sweet or salty?
alright I admit, thinking seriously about going back to judo is a little frightening.

I mean, yea, big whoop, I tried to fight a guy almost twice my size. I didn't get very far but I tried and I was angry when I tried and I lost. I don't really know what to think about it except that thinking of going back and fighting more is enough to make me think twice.

It's a feeling that echoes the aftermath of survival.

I might go out and play Frisbee with my little sis. depending on the temperature. I'm not big on subzero Frisbee playing. :P

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

apologies

Alright I was wrong to go on that last tirade, I'm sorry for picking on churches who don't agree with me. I don't have all the answers and I know I'm not right 100% of the time. I'm sorry.
there. :P
I bought a Frisbee last night :D I almost panicked at the store when I at first, couldn't find an ultimate frisbee disk. the only disks it looked like they had were dinky little ones and 130g disks as apposed to the 175g ultimate disk. Fortunately the ultimate disks had just been shoved to the back of the shelf so I didn't see them at first.
Mom, little sis and I also went to Sears and went Boot shopping. We all bought Tall boots in our respective styles. my brother thinks mine look kinda piratey and says he could see me getting them just so I can play Captain Jack.
We also bought nail polish.

I suppose I should apologies for bashing churches and other people's opinions but I shan't. My opinions are my own and since I didn't name any particular church.....

Monday, February 6, 2012

It's melting...

The snow is actually melting outside. I can't believe it. I know it's not spring. there's going to be about two or three more months of winter ahead before it actually all melts. this is sad. I actually want to go outside and run around and play tag (see I am a normal kid).
My mom found a dead chicken in our coop this morning, we are now down to five hens.
Actually with today's warm weather whatever eggs we get might now be frozen. do you know what happens when Chicken eggs freeze? the yolk gets all funny and gooey. almost solid. they become only good for baking. Not good for eating.

My little brother got sick today with what ever me and my little sister had. poor him. He's currantly laying on the couch and listening to 'The Horse and His Boy' by C.S. Lewis.

this morning I found myself severly lacking during Bible time. Zephania is only three or four chapters and I'd never read it till today. I need to go back and read all those obsure little books at the end of the old testament and read them. We all get told the story of Jonah when we are little so we know the story but I wonder how often we actually read the crash course in marine biology once we've grown up a little. I know I haven't.

I still can't believe the snow has melted off the trees and is dripping off the roof. :P

I'm going to work on my dress in a few minutes. gonna start tackeling the skirt. I pretty much have to make the entire dress out of muslin because it's a straight dress and I don't want a straight dress. I want it full and flared.
When it's finished it will be blue and sparkly black.
last night I was lieing awake thinking about what kind of shoulder/strapps I wanted to do. Because I drew it with one shoulder but I was rethinking if that was really what I wanted to do or if I wanted to do interlacing strapsor some kind of halter or both. I think I'll decide when I get there.

For school I had to read Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. That's a fun book. I've read it about three times and unlike Frankenstien I don't mind reading it before bed.
I like it better because it's a picture of humanity: Our sin-nature warring with what we know is right.

Sunday, February 5, 2012

tragical day in my family's house. The Giants won the Super Bowl. *sigh*

The Half-time show was good. :D we switched channels and watched 'Druggs Inc.' instead of Madonna.
The last half of the game was intense enough for me to say Hail Marry and cross myself. I'm not even Catholic but for some reason when the quarterback throws an impossible shot it's a hail marry or somethin, so I crossed mom too.

Today was good.

Yesterday was our dojo's annual tourney, my family. It was good. Got to hang out with Katie, which is something I have not done in a while.
hanging with her and Miranda went way better than it does normally, so I was happy.

Oh, and one more person is added to the list of teasing me about being on cocaine. Katie.
what's up? I've never been on druggs in my entire life but I get teased about being on it? *sigh*

Thursday, February 2, 2012

"as Iron sharpens Iron, so one man sharpens another."
I think Anikan  should have chosen his friends more wisely. Chancellor Palpatine only lead him astray.
that's what I was thinking about this morning when I couldn't sleep because my ear really hurt.


the other thing was that the Characters in star wars leaned towards the moral relativity point of view seeing things as true "from a certain point of view." Possibly not believing in an absolute truth.


Did I mention that "The Phantom Menace" is coming out this year in 3D and that I really want to go see it regardless of the fact that it is science fiction with a particularly atheist/evolutionist slant?

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

 Romans 8:31-39

31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?  

32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things?  

33 Who shall bring a charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies.  

34 Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us. 
 
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 

  36 As it is written:
“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”[b]

37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. 
 
38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,  

39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

This has got to be one of the most EPIC passages I've come across today (I've a list of references to look up and study) It's so good to know that Christ is at the right hand of God making intercession on our behalf and that NOTHING can EVER separate me from him. I can never be too far from him that he can't reach me. :D 
which also reminds me that he sees every thing I do, including my Ahemcrimesahem. 

something tittleless

I"m gonna work on my dress today. :D
It's going OK doing some tweaking of the pattern.
I"m also hoping that I can hitch a ride with some one next week to go to the Ultimate Frisbee game. It has been so long since I played.
If I can't get a ride then I can't go cause we have a tourney on that day that is hosted by our dojo. :)
My church is doing a Sunday school class on defending your faith. I'm going to it while the rest of my family is in service to prep for this upcoming spring brake retreat. I think it is so incredibly amazing to find evidence that backs my faith so that it isn't blind, so that I can have every confidence in the word of God.
So, the pastor was covering common arguments against the Christian faith and last week's was, "the bible is so old that it has been mistranslated and isn't reliable" (or something along those lines) I have to laugh in myself because at my old church I heard some one say that only the King James bible was accurate and all others were corrupted. So I had to laugh.
The fact is that they are not. yes, some of the newer bibles are in the 'modern talk', how we talk today (who says: 'behold! mine eyes have beheld the glory of the Lord' instead of  'Hey! I just saw God's glory'?). The meaning of the Bibles we have now are the essentially the same as what they had during the Roman occupation.
yes, there are some variations, hundreds of copies were made of copies of copies, so there are some differences were the scribes slipped up, or changed the passage a little to have subject-verb agreement and stuff but if you look at the context it's essentially the same.
So essentially, the New King James Bible, the study bibles and stuff aren't corrupted versions. THERE THE SAME, just written with modern language instead of "lo and behold."
Done my rant.
Yeah I admit I get uptight about stuff like that, when people say the version of the Bible I read is corrupted without having the facts strait or say that the drums and other hard instruments are from the devil. So the drums and the electric guitar are to us what the harp and lyre were to King David!!
Screamo, Rap and Pop music, yeah there are a lot of bad artists who sing bad lyrics but that doesn't mean Skillet is sinful.
on a side note I don't even like screamo music much (I cant understand what they're saying very well) but I do like Rap, Pop, and Country. As well as Christian music.
This is a long post.


Friday, January 27, 2012

Mah birdy laid her first egg. Thankfully she didn't die like my last birdy trying to lay and egg.





I"m happy. :D

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Hello all my readers who may or may not have noticed that our blog is changed!!! yes, after two years? Priscilla has changed our look. enjoy.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Ok. this is Fireproof in sixty. I couldn't find couragous. but this one is still funny. :D I gotta do school cause I really want to watch a movie tonight so I have to finish a paper.
my latest injury definitely looks interesting. I looks better now but earlier it was oozing and stuff. legh. *makes face*
good night all.
as of yesterday morning I lost about 5LBs. Due to the fact that I got sick. :P

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Forfeiting is hard.
there was a tournament yesterday so I fought. I thought since Josh was here he might coach us and that would be worth hurting my wrist for. He didn't do much coaching though. I got hurt so in my estimate it wasn't worth it.
I Forfeited my second match, I was slaughtered in the first and hit my head into the floor.
I quit. and that hurts.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

some of my favorite pics. :D






Today's a special day... Today's a special day..  Today's a special day.. it's somebody's birthday. It's somebody's birthday!
hehehe.
That and I don't currently have to worry about algebra cause I gotted unstuck. :D

Saturday, January 7, 2012

I have had the two most epic days. some of my friends came over yesterday to stay the night and hang out. we ended up having a Nerf war. Guys are NOT the only ones to play nerf.   Actually us girls were shooting each other in my room and we were told by out special intelligence (little sis) the the boys were going to try and attack us with their nerf (my brother was having his friends over as well). So we started listening to the boys conversation through the wall. we were waiting in ambush for their ambush. :D That was the most rabbit trailed war council I've heard.
"ok, we have 31 darts-"
"what's that?"
"Those are my pajamas."
"They look like penguins."
"They have penguins on them"
"Hey, look! I can touch my head to the ceiling."

and guys think we're bad.
any way. they didn't get the chance to attack us. they started playing with the spring-doorstop thing. those things are so annoying when you bump them. We were annoyed so we attacked them.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

I"m alive. just thought I should tell you that. I am counting down the days till my birthday. :D my party is tomorrow.  I'm happy. Some of my friends are coming over and spending the night.