Wednesday, March 28, 2012

O! M! G!
-sensie, upon seeing my return to judo.
I hurt right now. the tired muscles from judo aren't bad.

I just got back from hopping around though and I don't feel good. that's bad.
we had a sock war. that's were you try and pull people's socks off.
i'm off.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I do desperately love my mother. I love her very much and I don't wish she were invisible.
I don't want to be rebellious. I really, really don't.
Neither do I really want to talk about cutting either. It's just not something I want to talk about. It's like taking the scab off a wound and pouring lemon juice on it.
Counciling isn't something I think I need or want. I think I'm ok.
Mom has the authority to pretty much make me do what ever she wants. My close friends, they don't have that power. They are pretty much on my level; they can't make me go to counciling, they can tell me i'm wrong, ask me not to, cry and be hurt. But ultimately, I have to either take their advice or toss it out the window for myself.

I love my mom, I wish I could spend more time without having to worry that we are going to be discussing how I've messed up/if I've done something wrong, or "how i'm doing" and just do stuff.

I should probably go to judo tonight. it might be fun. getting ready for a tournament.

Monday, March 26, 2012

I get my braces off on wednesday.... same day as I was invited to go party.
I have yet to finish my school work so I should probably get off of here.
Grandma sent me a job to do. finish cape. My friend sent me a pair of shoes. lovely silver ones.
My dress needs working on. another thing I have yet to do.
dinner should get in there somewhere.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

I woke up this morning, of course, went to throw the blankets of me and made a discovery. My right wrist hurt. that makes both wrists. :P

Thursday, March 22, 2012

a failed rendition of "Jesus take the wheel" which is a very good song that I enjoy.
this is pretty funny though.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

today I go to the orthodontist to hopefully get my last set of bands and schedule the removal of my braces.
I had red highlights put in my hair on saint patty's day.
Yesterday there was a gas leak at the school were I take judo.
Tomorrow is Thursday.
that's pretty much all the excitement going on here.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

This week was pretty cool. I was at a sewing camp as a councilor. I taught a sewing group which started out as four and slowly dwindled to two by the end of the week.
some of the students left early and some were pulled from my group to even out the teacher/student ratio.
My study group was larger.
we had originally had fifteen students signed up for the class. but one helper and two students couldn't come..
There was one girl in my group who has been in foster care and hasn't seen her mom for six years. it was awesome just to be able to hang with her and get to know her.
I can't wait to see if she starts taking classes.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

march is self harm awareness month. just thought you'll should know.
My wrist hurts much worse today. I'm thinking it has a lot to do with working on that air clay yesterday.
I shall find the wrist brace.
I shall also write today.
I need to do a writing assignment because I won't be able to do it next week.
my dad's question my little bother's statement about dad's friend not wanting to talk to him or something. little dork.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Fanuilos heryn aglar
Rîn athar annún-aearath,
Calad ammen i reniar
Mi ‘aladhremmin ennorath!
A Elbereth Gilthoniel
I chîn a thûl lin míriel
Fanuilos le linnathon
Ne ndor haer thar i aearon.
A elin na gaim eglerib
Ned în ben-anor trerennin
Si silivrin ne pherth ‘waewib
Cenim lyth thílyn thuiennin.
A Elbereth Gilthoniel
Men echenim sí derthiel
Ne chaered hen nu ‘aladhath
Ngilith or annún-aearath.

I love this song. if you ever get the chance to listen to the passing of the elves from lord of the rings. it's beautiful.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

I just got the word that my teacher is inviting the helpers in the camp I will be helping with to do a fast. including a media fast.
I haven't dropped off the face of the planet but I will be gone for a little while.
I get to go teacher girls about sewing and about the bible in a week. trial run for a longer trip. :D