Thursday, December 30, 2010

hello people haven't written in a while. sorry. pray for me plaes. I have a fever at the moment. been sick the past few days.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

so lately I've been really worrying about the upcoming tournament in January. because I will be turning fifteen and I will be in a new division. and I'm pretty sure of who I will be fighting in that division. and I am pretty sure I won't be able to beat her.
I don't think I'll cry when I lose. I think I understand why the other girls cry. they get used to winning and then they don't.
I'm sure I won't. I can learn from winning.
but I am afraid of failing.
of not giving it my all because I think I'll lose.
I have expectations to meet that I don't think I'll be able to meet and in my mind the stakes are high. if I win then God gets glory, my dojo gets another meddle and I get personal respect from the other fighters and the audience as will as my friend.
it's not that I need that but If I win I prove myself to myself.

If I come in second or third or don't place at all. then glory to God it's his plan, I learn, and I'm just another fighter without enough experience.

I was worrying alot over it.

So I was convicted that with God all things are possible. I just have to go out and do my best and hope for the best and trust god and let come what may.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

"You have great hearts. And not for the sake of dignity, but for the love of your people."


Good, better, best.
Never let it rest.
Until your good is better,
And your better best.

If God takes you to it, He'll lead you through it.

If you always do what you've always done you'll always get what you've always gotten

Friday, December 17, 2010

what is the prupose and what do they see?

I"m not sure what to think. proud? last night was the first time I've ever hear/seen a 17/18 year old get told to be more like me. Hmmmm.
that begs the Question, am I a good role model? If a older person is told to be like me. how many little kids in that class are watching what I do and how I ask?what do  the see?
they said I was elite. is that all they see? a good competitor? or do they also watch how I act? how do I act?
Am I setting a good example that younger ones can learn from?
I pray to God  that I will become one, if I'm not already.
I  know I've already corrected one girl for not cleaning up after herself. Bio hazard.
I've been used as an example as to how to do things properly. is that the only reason I'm here?
at this time in my life, why am i here? what is my purpose here?

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

I'm having a savere case of I feel elven and gondorian.
Keeper of the King's Forests

Monday, December 13, 2010

Rogue Planet (novel)Image via Wikipedia
always think three times about some thing then always have three alternatives. ~star wars, rogue planet

as a matter of conscience I try never to read star wars on Sundays but once in a while I fail and give into temptation. bummer.

I am not sure wither or not I like the rogue planet. the take a mission to a planet that I think has a lot of nature worship going on. blah but I haven't gotten far enough to know. there is a distinct lack of God in it.but then what did I expect??
I don't like the whole force thing very much but I like science fiction and the master apprentice thing always have always will.
I like the Day star voyages they were Christian science fiction but I read them all. oh, well.....

most star wars books though I can have the fallacy easaly picked out, at least in the jedi aprentice ones. and so far in the rogue planet. I just have to be carefull and read carefully. and skip parts.

I dont' like how Anakin is so powerfull ether. he's BAD!!!
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